How to Deal With Disappointment and Curiosity

What's my capacity for experiencing more visibility? Do I have the skill of being able to fail without going straight into shame as a default response? Can I be disappointed and curious at the same time or does disappointment automatically lead to you shutting down? Is it okay to feel safe within myself when someone else misunderstands me, rejects me, criticizes me? How much can I take up space and relate to other people outside of patterns of this kind of co-dependence? Am I constantly looking around asking other people to give me that because I am not willing to give it to myself?"