Do You Feel Scared About Death?

i've had a lot of deaths in my life. So i've always been somebody that if someone in someone's family is going to die, they know i've been through it. My first novel was called hard laughter. And it was about laughing about this very hard stuff. There's no reason to feel embarrassed? It's a blessing. That god just loves you more than other people do. I think there wasn't this consciousness early on... we're talking about soul and brokenness. But when you can laugh about this thing, like when my dad died, it was like a nuclear bomb was falling on my family because he was kind of stuck with us for the rest of our lives