I've Been Playing the Bukla for Five Years and I'm Still in the Same Place

I fell in love with that machinean so even though i was classically trainedi when i worked with bukla, i stopped using a any kind of piano interface. So for five years now, i've been performing on the bukla and i have not touched the piano. There's a kind of internal switch in me from the old days where the keyboard was the danger of, you know, it blocked the understanding. Even to day, i i distance myself. I have a piano here, but i haven't, i haven't played it in five years. And just prior to that, i was touring on piano. But i couldn't be in those two worlds simultaneously.