For 25 years, almost every day, I would have this movie in my mind of me being sexually abused. It was kind of like my mind was replaying it over and over again. That's why I couldn't sleep at night. And so it worked in terms of success, but it left me feeling very alone and unfulfilled. So you cannot be driven by the dark side all the time. The key is knowing when it's appropriate to use it and knowing that it shouldn't be all consuming and burn you to the ground.