Why So Many Actors Are Fucked Up?

I wonder how much it really fucks him up, having to put himself mentally in that position. I remember first time i shot somebody, i goti was thrown up in themiddleof the night,. waking up, reking out about it. And then you just become numb to it, and you just go a. But i remember what was his names, a little guy an my unit too. He was like the youngest one in the unit, i think. One of these guys had just, we just, my other squads had just got to shoot out with these guys, and they took off running, and they murked like a bunch of em. It's almost makes me emotional