When you lose someone when one of your friends dies you're going to be hit with emotions that you can't control. And we as adults were not used to not being able to control over emotions anymore. I think that's a huge part that we missed out on and that we have missed out on is someone going oh I'm sad. There must be something wrong with me. It's like no actually this is what's normal. You're going to hit with these emotions but guess what eventually those wave those waves of emotions will go away and you'll have a break.