"When things don't work sometimes you know what the feeling of depression is for me or the feeling of despondency or just sadness is like when anything doesn't work," she says. "I have overreactions when the house is messy I am like the world is messy I just need to clean yeah we need to clean well let's do it, but Val I got I got I there's just so much to fucking do" She adds that Lila was begging for baby for a baby sibling this morning and said 'this is a year universe since you're um since we lost right' The couple are expecting their first child in December.