Is That the Right Strategy?

For some exceptional people, that's not necessary. They can just go straight to god. So like rob maharshy, for example. Ah, but that's probably not you, and that's not even me. And so what i've been coming to grips with lately is, i've done a lot of spirituality over the last five years,. But i notice that there're still certain things that i want out of, out of materialistic life, out of this dream that i'm in. There's certain experiences that i'm sort of missing, that i want have, that i know that i will regret not having. What i'm interested in is i want like a very deep,