I don't think you've betrayed your atheism at all. You're just saying I do not have a certain feeling about a God that other people seem to have. But it reminds me of how, um, in the Hebrew tradition, you wouldn't write the name of God,. So you're actually taking that so far as to say like, I'm not even going to name this thing. Yes. And also like again, this is about like living your life how it is true to yourself and then I feel like I've done my purpose. That's what I mean.