As soon as i could read, i wanted to write. And those two things developed side by side over the course of my life. After that first book failed, which is, i assume i on o h, it was your assessmen or the outside world? No, my anser it sounded like, ah, that's a seven years kind of demoralizing. A lot of people would have said, what i learned is i'm not a novelist,. and gone home and said, i'll make a living. I'll take care of my family. That's enough.