i feel like we make judgments based on a lot of gut and emotion, as opposed to measuring your progress. i don't mean to imply that it's always so easy. I think you have this intuition that if we were able to account for in some reasonably precise way the value of what we're doing verses what we could switch to, then we would have this problem solved. Let's see, i was in my eleventh month at mackenzie. The precipitating event was getting proposed to by her now husband.