The Experience of Being Religious Isn't Unorthodox

For me, the experience of being religious isn't unorthodox. It's not like it's time to throw it away so you can learn piano and germany like. There is a there is a something that shares a characteristic with occult. And there is a desire of repression and a need for independence. But my experience of religion is that i'm not... I don't know how to walk the tight rope between two things.