How Did You Find Your Way to Gerard?

i was struggling quite a bit in my first yearsat columbia, not demically, not professinally, not socially, but in a deep personal and existential sense. As a freshman at lit college, i, if you'll excuse a funny metaphor, think you kind of end up in a zoo with two thousand other hyperconscious, status oriented, presiege seeking teanagers. And the one word that i think which captures the existential problem of such a community is hollowness. I don't think gerard insights are rewarded, shall we say, in the victory of a triumph, but you have to go out there and scavenge them from your fields of defeat. It