i'm just curious how you're holding this, yo. Hy rob barbe has like hours and hours of talks that lay out conceptual frameworks so that you can enter this territory safely. And fire is an incredible tool, but it also can burn you badly. Is one over literalizing your desires, right? So i wasn't going to literally vomit in the middle of the circle. When i asked for my body to be eaten,. I didn't want you to literally eat my body, right? There was likeaho was sers tis existed in a kind of imaginable space, and yet it satisfied some kind of deep movement of sire. That was true. You know, he talks