I Feel Anxious When I Do Not Follow My Eating Plan

When i eat without any guidance, that is, according to my will, i feel like person with no control. I don't feel anxious if i especially if i know it's not going to have negative impact. Lik, if i eat pop tarts, i know thats gang to have a negative impact. But if i eat something like home made sour dough bread, and i know s ong oing to have a strong bad impact. And so there are days where we're not rigorous about our diet. We do keet ou stuff for living. So, like, when i've not eaten my best, it's hard for me to confidently talk about stuff, you know...