Do You Feel Like a Really Silly, Irresponsible Person?

We all have these deep, deep insecurities that we don't like thinking about and sitting with them. What if it's an aspect of your physical appearance? Or what if you think you're too short or too tall? And a huge part of your life it is about avoiding people either noticing these things, or people saying it to you,. excepting the parts of you that you folk can't change. Ultimately, i just have this desire to be seen as cold, collected, uncontrolled individual. But deep down inside I feel like a real silly, foolish parson who's worthy of ridicule.