i felt like most of my life had been stolen, stolen from me. i feelt very, very bitter. I suppose you caund say. And here's, here's li, here is my mafinision, correctne paro. So after the cold, when i left, a felt a grave sense of loss. A, i felt likemost of my life, for her entire life, had been stolen,. stolen from me; and that’s how it feels to be in this cult.