I'm just like, up my own butt. Or the sky, like i have blinders on. I lost all sort of staying present,. But i was able to remember that life is always changing - why would this be any different? That brought enough comfort to help me get through it a and we were saying, cause we finally lela is back at school, and last night we were able to have dinner together, and it was really special. And you mention that it's usually around time of year, yes, around this time of year... It came a month late, just to like trick us. Rains, it pours, and it is like a very winter specific kind