You Feel Diminished When Something Good Happens to Someone Close to You

The ego is very strong in you. Without any trace of awareness, you cannot even admit to yourself that you feel bad when something good has happened to somebody close to you. It's there as an un real, an unwitnessed emotion. And it might come out in you wen you speak to that person with a desire to diminish what they now have that you don't have. You 're not totally unconscious. There's already an awareness in you that is aware of that pattern. If there were no awareness in you, you wouldn't be ask that question. You would be acting out that pattern.