i find it reassuring and inspiring that initially you were reliably underestimating your own resilience. And because maybe that means so many of us are too. That is what i learne about myself as hey, i i am resilient. I don't think people realize that, and it was something i had to learn as well. When you realize that you are just one blip in this world, or in this universe, but things will still continue to happen in the world around me. So i have the choice of figuring out how can i in spite of the hand that i was dealt with,. How can i pick myself up and plug myself back into the society as it continues? You've said that