Until that moment, my plan was to legally change my name and disappear into europe. I think a lot of people are just what's best for me in this particular moment without necessarily a direction. A carelessly wrecking what could have been a great romantic relationship is the biggest mistake i've ever made. And then it was a matter of establishing those tactics or you knew, oh, yes, making a plan kind of a relatively easy, easy part once you know where you're going.