"If i could afford it, i would love to pay you to just come with me to things and be like, your name was on the list too," she says. "I've been at horrible, for me, hollywood parties and found, i remember finding some pretty big star,. and hewa talking to him for five minutes, and he listened to this podcast, and it was really cool." 'You don't have to go around a party, like i used to when i was in my twenties, going like, let's see if anyone thinks i'm special,' writes Abner N eforoudve.'That's what they mean by selling your soul to play the