Gaming isn't adaptive. Is adaptive, andis actually a solution. The second thing is that it protects you from the pit, but the pit was dug somewhere else we haven't quite been able to figure out. Sounds like it's not bullying. Maybe has something to do with your dad, maybe not. And that ultimately, your solution is going to be twofold one, is to try to fill in the pit. Because if you can deal with that underlying sense of rejection, or that lack of confidence in that too, your lack of confidence may come from the disorder of your childhood.