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217: What if you saw the face of death?

This Is Actually Happening

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I Don't Want to Kill Myself, I Just Dont Want to Be Conscious

"I didn't want to kill myself, but i just wasn't interesting in being a conscious human being," she says. "The feeling of not wanting to be conscious, but not being suicidal, very much feels like i want to want to live." In her dreams almost every night is about something bad happening - and she's not quite sure what it is. 'i remember a time when i was safe, and i want that again'

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