Is There a Ghost in Your Heart?

If you find that a person is always close to the front of your heart but not in a good way, almost like a ghost, like they haunt you. Or if you cannot think of them without thinking of the thing they did and here's why this is so huge. Is this person, it's almost like an endless low grade refrigerator buzz in the back of your heart? If you hear about something good happening to somebody and you aren't pleased, you aren't happy for them, you're almost bummed like, oh, that could be a sign. Perhaps there's some forgiving these to be done there.