i'm getting the sense that there's like, that emotion is part of what keeps you from taking care of yourself and taking a break. So i know that the good has come from the incident, as horrible as it soundshe but it just feels really bad because he didn't get to live longer. It really is a real tragedy. And singis, like, i had to see him dierit i, like, saw him having the seizures. I still have nightmares occasionally of like a zombi version of him coming out of the ground and running around - which is really fun. But it's like, it affects me still after three years,. But i also know that it