Do You Feel It When You Play Saxiphone?

When i was a kid, for me, practising,. it was always a way to escape. Now i understand that as i got into that booth sometime, like, i had tha feeling that when i was like, you know, my parents were divorcing, the functional family, and,you know, i was dealing with a lot of external things. So now i still do it because i really love to do it. And i have sort of designed my life in a way where i can have those six hours and practice as much as i can so i can take advantage of the experience. But i understand like, at least for me, like, if i want to go really deep