Iia, i was it even harderto something like five or six undergraduate schools. The idea of then leaving home and going off to college really landed hard on me. I started having just unbelievable panic attacks, horrible, horrible panic attacks. So i tried to go to school. But i kept thinking, oh god, what happens if i have to take english or english one o one? I don't know how to write a paper. It took me a long time to even to screw up the courage to do anything else.