Glenn Datcha: I don't want to die. I'm not going to live forever. There's a book by Richard John Newhouse, the theologian called as I laid as I lay dying and he wrote this book as he lay dying. He was contemplating his own death from the point of view of a Christian minister. "I read that book aloud to my wife Linda as she lay dying in that bed" Lorry says there is no magic or unseen hand arranging things.