"One of the most profound so I had this ketamine experience and and it was just so viscerally apparent that there's nothing you can do to fuck it up," he says. "It's what I call malevolent omnipotence yeah bad things happen because of you and good things happen in spite of you." He also talks about how people think oh if I do this things are going to fall apartYeah but when we do things the right way we go I hope it goes well right? So there's less the less certainty with the good things, he adds.