I'm a Caterpillar

"If i really go all the way down this path, i will get to point where i will have to create the experiment of truly entering into a reality tunnel," he says. "i've always had this thing like, fok, i'm headed towards something like that, and it's utterly terrifying." 'I don't know wha's going to happen, but the risk is, like, a psychotic break is more terrifying to me than death'