Is This Real?

i just wanted to, i'm in a now that things have now hat. There's a tiny bit of normalsya, ebbing back into life, or whatever. And e, it's making me actually feelmy feelings again, which i don't appreciate or enjoy but this morning. I think i was just talking about how i'm having a hard time in covid kind of like likea i'm having reactions that don't make a ton of sense once they come out of my mouth,. and then i get really like self loathing and feel a lot of shame. Intoxic shame lies in wait for those moments when you falter, so it can jump out and yell.