I have a book available if you want it. It's called the end is always near. Apocalyptic moments, from the bronze age collapse to nuclear near misses. The editors forced me to sort of confront in the same way that i can sit there and go, sure, i have torture books on my bookshelf but that doesn't mean anything. I would be interested in hearing from those of you who hear it if you notice any difference between it and the normal podcast.