How I Control Everything in My Life

i am somebody, probably like a lot of you guys, who i control everything in my life. I hold on to such a tight grip and to everything. And i think that is one of the reasons for my success, because i can separate so insanely emotion and pain from action. It's how i got through three natural childbirths like it was nothing. Its a healing session. So a little bit of baxter, i man talk about im and talk about how ably life changing it was,.How it's impacting me to an extreme that i can't even fully put into words.And i've been processing thas.I've been off social media, completely quiet since i did