At the time, i would wake up at night in my bed and i tried not to wake up my wife when i was crying. And i didn't know how to get out of it. Luckilyi, i had gone so far down this one way road that turning around was just death. So i just kept going. But it would not be vory little the you burned the boats on the beach, there was no going back. I burned the beach, the boats, everything, s the compass, everything as burned, everything, maps. We have to make this work. Yes.