The Importance of Knowing What's Happening to Me

I don't know how to love you Mark. I mean we met in the most messed-up way possible and then the whole thing with you and Damien had me so confused. Sam would've been over this. You didn't have to be perfect for him. Maybe that's why I called him. It was a mistake. This has all been a mistake. Don't say that. God no not us. Thinking I could help people. thinking that Joan, Joan the person who manipulated me when I was her patient who would have done anything to save you no matter who she heard. And then me someone who kept secrets from you  who doesn't know the first thing about people.