Do I Have an Intellectual Life?

i realized that i had got so lost in in my practical work and in working on people''s knowledge and talent and ideas y committe that neglected it. And then i sae sing about her. Then i literally stopped in the middle of my apartment and was i do i have an intellectual life? I mean, seemingly run this company, but do i have a zena style, lost in thought, individual practice right now? F intellectualism?