I can't imagine how somebody can get to sort of the perfect number of words in a sentence without writing thousands of words and then editing it down, like it just doesn't i don't think it just comes out that way. Even if nobody reads my books, like even hesitation wonds was rejected by over 50 something places. For me, for me, it's like the le who will understand will understand. And i just have to keep doing what i'm doing. It may be, in some small way, that they're not bad, that they should continue to live.