I Don't Think I Believe Anything Anymore

i don't think i believe anything any more. Everything was just darkness and emptiness inside. Never experienced that before. I remember vividly, still, even to day, and i always will, that precise moment when my soul left my body. It was hard for me to admit that to myself. After all, i had all these degrees and had been teaching future pastors for years the fine points about god, the bible and faith. But those words just squished out of me, like, like they wanted to, like they needed to. And i wasn't proud of it. They were out there, existing, and i couldn't pull them back. There they were.