The Effect of Mindfulness on Emotions

I've done very basic like mindful dismeditation and I grew up Catholic as well so I prayed a lot obviously as a kid and still now. Whenever I meditate I can never really identify the thoughts as separate for myself. So it's hard to kind of gauge what's spontaneous anymore. You know more or less you don't know what's going to happen and what your sensitivity to it's going to be. And so do things spontaneously happen to me still? Yes but that there's a number of factors within that is I've had experiences before so I'm kind of already open in a sense.