As a kid, i had this reputation for never to being the last person to pick something in the manor at the restaurant. I would just sort of pick, almost at random, almost like flip a coin in my head type of thing. If on couldn't choose, just to get through it. And yet, just that gap between having an idea in your head of what should happen and actual setting something in motion in the real world is a weird sort of thing. A big the struggle for consistency was definitely a theme. It was definiely a theme in a situation where i had more agency over it. Ecause, frankly, in school you don't really have agency,. You