"I've been burbling in my heart for ten years with the world, i get to come on thisa it has led to a lot of, like, wheel of desire, pain. And so i decided, when i, when you said i should come on the show, i said, this will be my final thing," he says. "It will not be a means to an end. It will be an end in itself." 'i don't even careya souding fake, but its totally real,' he adds.