Are You Afraid of This?

Do you ever think, maybe if i encountered this early onit, i wouldn't have been such a great writer? It took me over ten years to stop being grief struck and mad. And that's what i hate and i loved last night. I don't love being in this clenched, rashy state. But anyway, it's like people are always saying, let go and let god. And i just want to stab him in the head with a fork like a baked potato."