Will I Have Long Term Friends?

As my career grew, i began to feel like im it was harder to find some one that could hold my light without dimming my light. I'm grateful for every relationship that helped me get there. Every rel ship gave me something, either gave me a gift or gave me a lesson why i'm grateful for them. What can be done? I could throw a party and literally invite my former relationships and they would all come, and we would have a great time. That's how clean they are. And so i begin to miss no one knows me, tho no one knows lisa chantethe old mae. In the last two years, not yet. There's no one there...