Gita writes about one of her dreams, she had a dream about God and the off-trecurring dream for her would be God is feeding me. So that's very touching. She died of starvation, she wouldn't eat. I have known so many monks like that when I was a novice,. A young man, he would serve all of us food. It really is exhausting. You'll be soaking wet by the time it's finished. Other people either they snap because of overdoing such things or they just give up infrastration after some time. But your guys not possible.