Soiadecar: I feel lik not crying enough, cause i keep sheltering my feelings and just trying not to think about it. But i think i need to talk about it more and just talk vented out. The lashes are staying on, so we're gonodr, but yei just wanted to share that with you all. She says she's been thinking a lot about her grandmother who is going through some dimentia. "I don't know if anybody else can relate with that," Soiadecar says.