I was raised in a culture that said you date to get married. You don't do anything but have a husband. That is what you were trying to do. Then I found myself at 37 questioning everything because I was coming out of a relationship with a lot of deceit and a lot of lies. And now you're looking at him, he's also got his own stuff that he's supposed to deal with. It's just, it's really a mind screw. Like it's just really dangerous.