At a young age, i was very aware i wasn't the same. And so there's like, you're observing, you're just observe a lot. A lot of my humor in the beginning was mesogenistic or internalized homophobia. Those were survival tactic, if i say this sassy thing about what someone's wearing, i'll get approval. There's not a space for that any more. I'm still a people pleaser,. yes, i'm still. a better writer now. Obviously. And i'm more comfortable without i am. It doesn't just tear away. You have to learn how to like. How does that even in his writing? Like, with