Dealing With Zan

I was derailed, not just by grief, but by the sheer depths of my emotions. It isn't accurate to say that dealing with zan diverted me from grief. Nothing could have done that. As i became more conscious of what i was doing, feeding, cleaning and even occasionally talking to zan, i found the discipline, the responsibility and the schedule comforting. I liked knowing where i would or should be at these times. And i began to feel atea in zan's company.