How to Stop Self-Loathing in a Rock Bottom Moment

I was oblivious to the pattern I didn't see it until I hit that breaking point where whenever I would feel sadness or tension or some anxiety I would quickly roll up another joint. How in that moment did you not fall into self-loathing because I think sometimes when you hit rock bottom or you realize like what I'm doing doesn't work anymore? It's so easy to slide into absolute self- loathing but how did you stop yourself in that moment? That's a great question and two things are involved. When I hit that rock bottom moment I knew that like I was way too close to losing my life like I really you know I talked to a doctor later and she was like